So it seems that winter is still trying to nip at our bums as we try to embrace the warmth of the soon-to-be summertime. For those of you who planted and then saw all those babies freeze, I am sorry. I wonder sometimes how those who grow fruit or veggies for a living here in Utah make a living with such a short growing season.

I sit outside and huddle around my barbecue as slow glowing coals give off as much heat as they can whilst a freezing wind whips around my body. That chicken will never cook. There are so many things I want to do this summer, and with the last weekend's trip still fresh on my mind I ponder all the many different outings that I could embark on. Backpacking in the Uintas, fly-fishing the Weber and Provo rivers, motoring around Soapstone basin and exploring caves, swimming at Lake Powell off the back of the boat, or wake boarding across Pineview Reservoir. Then I think of all that is holding me back.

School will be finally finished with for me in 8 weeks! July 18, 2008 I will walk across a stage and receive my degree in nursing. This is a huge accomplishment for me as I really do have a full house of unfinished projects. I seem to start so many things and then never follow through with. I have artwork from the 9th grade that still is just a sketch aspiring to be in color. I have books with bookmarks mid-way through cluttering my dusty shelves. Everyone has these in their life... the "if only I had more time so I could do that" projects.

All in all though.. I think I accomplished quite a bit this winter. I trained for the Salt Lake City half marathon and ran it a few weeks ago. I made candles with my kids like I promised, we went snowshoeing, snowboarding and skiing, organized the garage (great shelving at IKEA), and all the while I kept at school and worked full-time! When I look back, I suppose I did alright. Still, nagging me in the back of my mind is that small voice.... "we should do this... or that...". It seems the best intentions always driving me and others I know, to constantly go go go and do better or best.

I suppose we all have to be somewhat dissatisfied with ourselves in order for there to be a drive. I read an article recently that simply put said, that we are satisfied with good because we are comfortable, therefore we never want to do great. Being comfortable can be a problem, especially for me right now. So, in order to do great, I have to simplify and not do so many things.

Still that voice chimes.... do more, do more!